23 May, 2019

Day of Life- Happy Birthday Baby Girl


 Unable to celebrate you living

I want to honor you by giving

Giving my time
Offering hope
Loving the earth
Helping folks cope

You gave to me
The most valuable teaching
LOVE is what matters
So make it far-reaching

Love your neighbors
Love your friends
Love your enemies
Love without ends

Sunshine
after the darkest storm
Brings on a rainbow
Sky transforms

Smile
across her face
Despite the pain
She feels grace





Synchronicity-
A year or so after Lizzy died I hit a time when I was feeling particularly low.

Grief is a strange beast-  and an ongoing process.  I was feeling that I had somehow failed her.  Failed my baby girl.  Not being a good enough mom-  not being what she needed,  all sorts of emotions and just really down on myself.

On a camping trip RubyCatherine left her "Lizzy" doll on the sofa with my Lizzy's hat.  Unable to read at the time Ruby slapped a few stickers on her doll and went off to play.  Tidying up I found my much needed message.

The WOW sticker was upside down-  so it read Mom, Great Job!

Tears fill my eyes again as I remember holding the doll like my baby, rocking her and thanking her.

I love you Lizzy.  I miss you everyday.

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