22 July, 2016

KETCHIKAN, ALASKA

Creek Street, Ketchikan, Alaska
Art Credit :  MA Clare
I am not much of a shopper, but I love walking on Creek Street- and all over Ketchikan for that matter.  As I strive to live minimally (less stuff, less clutter, less stress) and focus on the moment (what matters most)  I rarely shop-  except for groceries.  With that said chinookandcompany.com is pretty awesome.  Gourmet groceries.  Antiques.  Kavu sports wear.

Last summer I bought a blue Kavu skirt from Linda at Chinook & Company.  I now call it my uniform, because I wear it everyday.
Chinook & Company is a small one person operation run by Linda Meuter, yet another tough and talented Alaskan woman.

This week I bought a case of this amazingly delicious Sockeye Salmon. 



Elias Lamb Castle, Totem  Bight Lodge
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This is my FP.
Favorite Person.  I love him.  A lot.
I am so thankful  he loves me back.


21 July, 2016

SKAGWAY, ALASKA 2016


We  took a ride on the rail Thursday afternoon, went back into Yukon, Canada-  Exquisite views.

 White Pass Yukon Route-  Alaska Railroad

The Friend Ship - Disney Wonder 2016

Alaska is a place of healing for me.  I am so thankful for the opportunity I've had to go there these last three summers.  Temperate rain forests, green, ocean, sea life, hiking, green.   Green is a color of new growth.  I have grown, and I continue to grow.  Growing hurts, yet, knowing pain has taught me to appreciate true joy.

The Friend Ship
The Disney Wonder really is an Amazing Friend Ship.  

Even these two rascles are Friends on the Ship.

We love to make new Friends.

Our trip wouldn't  be complete with out Ruby Catherine's dolly - Lizzy.
Lizzy (the doll) has been everywhere we go- or at least every where Ruby Catherine goes.
 We carry our Lizzy (daughter) in our hearts and think of her so often.






12 July, 2016

SGA's Stroke

Sweet Grandma Ardy had a stroke a couple of days after Grandpa's funeral.  She was taken to University of Utah Hospital.  She has lost her ability to speak and some control of her body.  Bless her sweet heart (seriously the sweetest).  She is a strong woman, 85 years and counting.  I love you SGA.
My Mom with SGA.

05 July, 2016

Road School Homeschool

Double Down Dog
Ruby Catherine and mom chillin at home.

We started school in June when the kids school year ended.  For the next year Eric and I are solely accountable for their education.   There is something really extraordinary about taking on that responsibility.  It is daunting, certainly not easy, yet, so rewarding.  I am excited and  nervous, but mostly excited.

As I work to create mindfulness in my own life, I am finding that as I engage in listening to the kids read I am really "in the moment", not distracted by my phone, or NPR, or anything.  Just listening.   There is something really amazing about the power of now,  I don't necessarily enjoy the content of  See Spot Run or  Pokemon comics, however, it is pretty wonderful to hear the sweet voices of my babies,  take in the sunshine, see their expression, and (my favorite)  their response to praise.  I can't think of a better feeling than seeing confidence and pride twinkle in the eyes of a child.

    So, living in a tiny space with minimal resources, spending your time working (teaching) for which your already paying taxes for someone else to do.  It isn't for everyone... Did I mention tight living quarters?  Well, surprisingly,  I am not alone.  I've found a whole community!

familiesontheroad.com
This is just one site that has been a good resource.

IDAHO:
We spent a week in Idaho-  Elias studied Lewis and Clark's expedition through Idaho,  the Teton Dam disaster of 1976, and made DIY quivers to hold his arrows.  He is a pretty good shot these days. We had school lunch at the park most days, and played with cousins and friends everyday.

Ruby Catherine read 20+ books, chased many chickens, and played with numerous babies- her cousin baby Henry most of all.  She even got to assist in changing some diapers (her favorite thing in the world). For the last two Christmases she has asked for only one thing:  Diapers.   I have never known a 6 year old to be such a motherly type.  She engages with babies, plays with them, keeps them safe, and of course changes diapers.  Sometimes I wonder if she is the real mother of the family. We already know that she is the boss. And I love this little woman more than words could ever express.

03 July, 2016

This Is Not The End



This is not the End
But a separation temporary.
Grandpa Henry is still with us, but in another realm. 
He is in a state of paradise, happiness.
No longer suffering or feeling pain, his faculties fully intact. 
Grandpa’s  watching out for his family especially for Sweet Grandma Ardy.

Loves light shines far beyond this mortal world.
And if we mindfully observe we can see the fruits of love, the blessings, the gifts produced by love.

Grandpa still has many gifts to share.
We can still see the blessings of his generosity, find humor in his wittiness, and follow the example of his kind heart.
I love you Grandpa.

When I was a little girl, Grandpa often gave me the job of rubbing his head in
exchange for a quarter.  This was his last head rub.  On me this time Grandpa. 


29 June, 2016

Good bye Sticks and Bricks.... Hello USA, Canada & Mexico

29 June 2016  Our last full day at home.
For the next 14 months we will be living in our Fifth Wheel - Bunkhouse Trailer seeing the USA (and a little Mexico).  The great Yoga tour-  or as Eric says The great X-wing tour.  The truth is that it is a sabbatical for research.  Eric will be compiling his research and writing most of the year.  I enjoy helping with data collection and I might help with some of the data analysis...  Might.

I love traveling and I love seeing new places, yet, it is a bit of an emotional good bye.  I am closing a chapter of my life that I will not experience again.  I am working to center myself and live in the moment, enjoy the beauty that surrounds me right now.

Our old home and our new home.
We have rented out our house- sold much of our stuff, and stored some things too.  I am becoming a minimalist, so tiny living really intrigues me.  I plan to post every Thursday.  Stay tuned.



23 June, 2016

Portrait of Mama

Art by Ruby Catherine
Ruby Catherine drew this lovely picture of me... when she gave it to me she pointed out that she too is in the picture (lower left).

"Mom, this is me, I'm growing in your heart."

I love this girl.  She continues to grow in my heart everyday.

24 May, 2016

Happy Birthday Elizabeth~

At sunrise today
A rainbow appeared
Light shining through
Darkness and fear.

This is the day,
May twenty forth,
My baby girl would have turned 4.
I miss her hugs,
Her smiles, her eyes.
Yet I still feel her peace
Her spirit is wise.
I keep looking on
Each day is new
Each moment a gift
I soak in the view.
I love you Lizzy,
I am blessed by your peace.
I find hope in your love.
May you presence ever increase.

Until that day
When I can hold you again
I'll try stay focused
And let the present Reign.


May 24, 2016
Happy Birthday baby girl~

03 May, 2016

Two Years





Two years ago my light went dim 

Now my now takes courage 

I travel the dark, the grim. 


Your spirit is near me, yes its true. 

Still, I long to hold you baby blue, 

To look in your eyes, to kiss you goodnight 

It’s in a different realm, I feel your light. 


You’re not dim. 

You’re flame is not dark. 

I endeavor to see every spark. 


The gifts you bring, 

Help mend my soul 

Add peace to my being 

Make me Whole. 


Before I knew your gentle love 

I was partially empty. 

A cup half full. 



I am a better person 

because of you. 

Though, your Earth life short 

Your spirit lives on, 

Your light shines through

Peace, Love, Support 


As I’ve watched others suffer losses deep 

I wondered as I watch them weep. 

Is it really better to have loved and lost? 

I know now, Love is worth the cost. 


You teach me to honor my dreams 

Your light burns with hope 

Reminding that Jesus redeems 

It is only through Him we can cope. 



So, when I long to hold you. 

When my moments are grim. 

I try to remember we’ll be together again. 



I love you Madison Elizabeth. 

And still I thank God for you everyday. 

Love, Mama

02 May, 2016

Thankful

Grateful for friends who get me through.

26 March, 2016

Cello Practice


Elias and his Cello.  A learning experience.


12 March, 2016

Trailer Remodel- TheSheepCamp


Carpet has been removed.  I am prepping for paint.



I am begining to paint the cabinets.  Swanky Grey.

30 December, 2015

Christmas in France 2015



We lit a candle for Lizzy.  She is always with us in thoughts and spirit.  

Strausborg, France town center-  Christmas Market


Strausborg, France

Church in Paris

Brandon the elf followed us to France! Keepin an eye on everyone.

Selestai, France-  Home to the first Christmas tree in 1521

Christmas Market, Strausborg


Highspeed train to Paris-  Wow that was FAST.


24 December, 2015

Christmas Tree Dance

Strausborg  Christmas Market,
Christmas Eve 2015
France
The night is still
Darkness in France.
Yet love is present
At this Christmas tree dance

Traditions rich,
Christmas bells ring.
The village honors
the birth of a King.

Our family celebrates
Christmas this year
Thinking of Lizzy
Oh how I miss her still.

Darkness runs deep
These midwinter nights
Yet the sun still reaches us
With each morning light.

A Savior is born,
To teach Peace to the world
Reminding us of our baby Girl.

Peace on Earth,
Goodwill to men.
May the year ahead
Be filled with Light and Zen.

HLC
 —

28 November, 2015

Ugly Sweaters and Left Over Pie

Ugly Sweaters and Pie 2015
Sister Missionaries are awesome.

19 November, 2015

Jon Kabat-Zinn

Heidi Lamb-Castle and Jon Kabat-Zinn
Lizzy,
I caught a vision of you in meditation today.
You walked with joy and you called my name.
"Mama", you smiled as your eyes met mine.
Your face was bright, your light still Shines.
A good days work in yoga, meditation with this guy- Thank you so much Jon Kabat-Zinn

10 November, 2015

Honk 40 Heidi

What does a 40 year old understand about life?
I have much to learn… of this I am sure.
I know love, I know pain
And often, I find…
They are the same.
Loving deeply, the greatest joy of life
Loving deeply, my greatest hurt.
With out one I would not know the other
Living life never tasting dessert.
Today I enjoy the sweetness of life's dessert.
Thanks for the birthday wishes! Thanks for the honking horns at my house! Fun times. Thanks Eric for being my best friend and partner in life.









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