Yoga

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The nature of yoga is to shine the light of awareness into the darkest corners of the body.  -Jason Crandell

Yoga is the journey of the self, through the self, to the self."  -The Bhagavad Gita

When I consider my yoga practice,  I recognize what a gift it has been to learn to tolerate uncomfortable circumstances.  Sometimes miserable.  And I am learning to find beauty in the pain.

After Lizzy died I was in shock for a year or more.  Yoga was one of the tools that grounded me, brought me back to the moment.  There were many yoga classes that I cried my way through, and in those moments I was hurting and needed to release-  allowing myself to feel the deep loss, to feel it emotionally and physically.  Pain in my heart, sadness and loss.  I am a better person because of Lizzy.  I wouldn't trade those two years with my baby girl, even knowing the pain of her loss.  I try to be grateful that I had something so wonderful to lose.  She continues to teach me peace, and how to be an instrument of peace.

With our family currently living on the road, I am missing my regular yoga sessions.  I am currently putting effort into my daily practice and looking for practitioners and studios around the USA.   Part of my practice is taking in my current surroundings.  I try to really live in my moments and notice the beauty around me, give thanks, feel blessed.


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