11 July, 2019

Weddings and Hand Signals~


Take a close look at her hand~
So my amazing sister in law got married July 11.  
There were many beautiful pictures of her and her hubby.  
However, this picture of my niece, took the cake.  This little girl just finished 1st grade, and she means business.  She is not afraid to take the bull by the horns. She is a go getter and she knows how to get what she wants from life.  
You go girl.   Don't ever lose your spark.
And I love you.

30 June, 2019

Alaska and Beyond 2019

Butchart Gardens, Victoria BC
Victoria flowers
Warm sunshine
Blooms of violet
Best friend of mine

A day in the gardens
And strolling about
Gelato and ivy
Kombucha stout

Seattle tomorrow
Explore some more
Loving this time
Con mi amour

Gum Wall, Pike Market Seattle


Pike Place Market



Juneau, Alaska  

Seattle, Washington

Artwork:  Daphne Mennall
Gravesite of Harriet Pullen,   Skagway railway Alaska-  I had to do some hiking and bushwacking off the trail to find Harriet's Grave.  I have been reading her  role in the history of the Gold Rush.  Another Strong woman that I admire.

Butchart Gardens, Victoria BC

22 June, 2019

Native Women #TheRedDressProject


Red River, Waterfront, Winnipeg
I dropped my kids off at Camp Good Mourning yesterday.  I cried.  In fact, I couldn’t hold back the tears.  Not because I was leaving my kids for a few days,  I cried for all the grieving parents I saw bringing their littles to Mourn well.  All of us together.  Moving forward, with the grief of losing a child.  All mourning, loving, learning. 

I am in Winnipeg. It is indigenous peoples day here in Canada, with festivities including art, music, food and more.  Celebrations, stories, and remembering all taking place at the confluence of the Assiniboine and Red River of the North.  


I am struck  this year by the Red Dress Project, which centers on Missing and Murdered Indigenous Women.  #MMIW  Statistically, Native women are trafficked, assaulted and murdered at higher rates than any other demographic.  According to the National Institute of Justice, native women are 10 times more likely to be murdered than the general US population, The Center for Disease Control reports murder is the 3rd leading cause of death for native girls under age 20.    


I found myself walking the greenway the morning following all the events, when I heard shouting coming from the River.  Who is swimming in these frigid waters I thought? Recreational swimming is not recommended in the Red River. I was some distance from the water and couldn’t make out what they were saying.


Then,  I saw her, floating, silent now, moving with the swift current, her shoes floating along beside her. Her long black hair and small frame, so vulnerable.  Meanwhile, the greenway was bustling with people, dogs and bicycles. But, I couldn’t focus on anything but her.  

I watched.  I wondered, does she need help? Why is she swimming in these frigid waters?  And why are others not concerned about this situation?


The Red river is wide in Winnipeg. Very wide and she was quite far away from me.  I called out to her, she didn’t seem to hear me, so I changed my direction and started running with the flow of the river. I got off the greenway path and closer to the shore, jumping over logs and tall grasses. I got closer to her and called out again and again.


“Do you need help?”  

The wide waters seemed to absorb my voice.

Then, Finally:

“Of course I need help!, what does it look like?” she called.


I dialed 911- hoping it was a universally recognized emergency number in Canada.

On the phone with the dispatcher I continued to scan the river for signs of life.   


I couldn’t hear her well.  But I did hear her yell out “Gabby”.  Then it struck me. She is looking for someone.  Someone else was out there!


The dispatcher told me to keep my eyes on her- and if she goes under to keep my eyes on that spot. Chills went up my spine as I intently watched her and tried to keep up with the flow, I was more than a mile from where I started following her.


The dispatcher kept asking for landmarks, and names of bridges and streets, of which I am not familiar.

I tried to keep my eyes on her as I bushwhacked through the vines and trees, passing through empty homeless camps.  The river moves swiftly.


After several minutes I heard sirens.  Paramedics and water rescue had arrived.  I directed them to the young woman and water responders helped her into the boat. 


A young, shivering native woman walked up the bank with a rescue worker on each side holding her steady.  And still she wanted to turn back and look for Gabby.  


How did she and Gabby end up in those cold water fully clothed with shoes?  It doesn't seem like something one would choose.


Drones were soon searching the area.  I still don’t  know if Gabby was found alive.


I almost walked away from the woman I thought to be swimming.  I thought she was yelling to a friend.  She WAS yelling to her friend.  In many ways it just looked like a little rough and tumble recreation.  But the more I was drawn in the more I could see and feel the frightening reality.


Bicycles and joggers continued to pass by. People walking dogs.  Oblivious.

I don’t know how much longer she could have made it in the cold water before hypothermia would set in.  Ironic that it is was Indigenous Peoples day or maybe synchronicity. 


May I, may we all,  be more mindful of Native women, sisters, friends.

May no more mothers mourn their daughters death because we were not listening.  #MMIW


Native women isolation

Culture stolen

Incognation


Mothers scorned

And forgotten

Daughters born

Misbegotten


Torn away

Abused neglected

Drowning dying

Force subjected


Ancestors

Born of the land

Posterity

Later banned


A girl drowning

Plunging screaming

A world ignores

Goes on mainstreaming


The River flows on

Howling fades

Another life taken

duty evades


Stand up now

Don’t be deceived

Listen to women

Actuality believed


It’s time for change

With you it begins

Silent bystanding

Never wins



23 May, 2019

Day of Life- Happy Birthday Baby Girl


 Unable to celebrate you living

I want to honor you by giving

Giving my time
Offering hope
Loving the earth
Helping folks cope

You gave to me
The most valuable teaching
LOVE is what matters
So make it far-reaching

Love your neighbors
Love your friends
Love your enemies
Love without ends

Sunshine
after the darkest storm
Brings on a rainbow
Sky transforms

Smile
across her face
Despite the pain
She feels grace





Synchronicity-
A year or so after Lizzy died I hit a time when I was feeling particularly low.

Grief is a strange beast-  and an ongoing process.  I was feeling that I had somehow failed her.  Failed my baby girl.  Not being a good enough mom-  not being what she needed,  all sorts of emotions and just really down on myself.

On a camping trip RubyCatherine left her "Lizzy" doll on the sofa with my Lizzy's hat.  Unable to read at the time Ruby slapped a few stickers on her doll and went off to play.  Tidying up I found my much needed message.

The WOW sticker was upside down-  so it read Mom, Great Job!

Tears fill my eyes again as I remember holding the doll like my baby, rocking her and thanking her.

I love you Lizzy.  I miss you everyday.

30 March, 2019

Bemidji- Paul Bunyon

RubyCatherine and Simone had fun all weekend. 
I ran into my friend Laura in Bemidji.  We went to high school together in Pocatello, Idaho.
Synchronicity. 
We had been pleasantly surprised to bump into each other 10 years ago in Bemidji as well.  

Spring is springing  I first noticed the Lilies coming up 24 March 2019.

29 March, 2019

Its Official - He is a Teenager

Hap, hap, hap Happy Birthday.  Elias I love you more than words can say. 
You give me purpose.  Your light shines bright.

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